14 Jun 2016


The past few months i have felt overwhelmed. Overwhelmed with chasing after 3 active, energetic little boys while pregnant. This pregnancy has been incredibly tiring for me. I often wonder what life will be like when our 4th son arrives...

But that's when i remember the words of a very wise woman, who is mom to not 4, but 10 kids! She always said, "God doesn't give you the grace for 4 kids, when you only have 3"... Reminiscent of Paul's words to the Corinthians, ""My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." (2 Corinthians 12:9). And so daily, I remember God will give me the grace for 4 boys, when we have 4 boys! So as much as i'm overwhelmed at the task of mothering 4 active little lives, i am even more overwhelmed by the mercies of His grace.

This week we are also starting our LoveGodGreatly Bible study on the life of David, in Polish! This graphic from 1 Samuel 17:14 has had a profound impact on me. It has reminded me of the eternal significance of ONE life. As I walk around with my 3 boys and pregnant belly, I get the distinct impression that people think we're crazy for having 4 kids. I can't say i really blame them, from time to time I think we're crazy, or wonder what we've gotten ourselves into!!! But Jesse (David's father) had not 4, but 8 sons. Life and culture were much different during David's lifetime, but it still struck me how God chose, not the eldest, but the youngest of David's sons to be king, to shepherd His people. That he entrusted into David's hands Israel... trusted him to take care of His inheritance! If i think about it in our context that means the life, legacy and potential impact of our son, not yet born, is incredibly significant in the eternal realm! Who knows the things God has ordained for baby boy #4 and the impact he will make on the world and on eternity!

It has made me thankful and restored joy in this journey, amongst the extreme tiredness. Yes, i am overwhelmed with exhaustion... but i am also overwhelmed by His grace, and overwhelmed by the eternal significance of ONE life, this 4th little boy that God, in his kindness has entrusted to us!