Last night i hardly slept at all.
And as i got up one of a million times to calm or feed baby, on my way to the bathroom, i heard a voice in my heart, "God created it this way"... seriously? what? are you kidding me?
But He did.
These little ones who need us... who need to eat... who need mommy's milk to sustain and grow them. That's HIS good design.
And i realized in that moment how much this whole sleep deprivation thing is causing me... forcing me to need HIM.
That's His design too. That life's trials and challenges would cause us to run into the arms of Jesus. exhausted. needy. tired.
Too often i try to do things in my own strength. And the unfortunate thing is too often i somewhat succeed. So i'm thankful for times like this in my life that remind me of my weakness.
This verse once again takes on new meaning in this phase of life:
- But (again) he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
2 Corinthians 12:9