Dear Baby Boy #3,
You have made mommy WAY more tired than your older brothers. Third trimester nausea has caught me by surprise and not been my friend. All the unpleasant things that come with pregnancy make me want to complain- a growing belly makes it hard to do up a coat and tie shoes... hormones make me happy one moment and mean the next... heart burn and reduced bladder capacity... sleepless nights and feeling like a deflated balloon. Sometimes i wonder what we were thinking adding you to our family at such a crazy, sleep deprived time as this...
Yet - all these things are temporary and you, o little boy have a soul that is eternal! Save me, O GOD, from my complaining and turn my eyes to the wonders of your ways! Last night I saw you, my little one, practising breathing inside of me in an ultrasound and it brought tears to my eyes! O how supremely wonderful our creator is that He would design you to practise breathing before you even breathe your first breath of air! I saw the hair on your head and wonder if it will be red like your brothers or a different colour altogether? I feel your kicks inside me and know that you will be strong, unique and loved.
"For you formed my inward parts;
you knitted me together in my mother's womb.14
I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Wonderful are your works;
my soul knows it very well."
This is my prayer for you little boy #3 ~ that you would be a little boy who is curious, energetic, interesting and full of faith, knowing the wonderful works of God. That you would have so much love to give that you cannot contain it, a smile that melts hearts and a joy that helps save them.
Only a month until we meet you but in the meantime when i feel you moving inside me (and all the other effects of pregnancy) and am tempted to complain - i will remember the blessing of children... that at one time i feared we would have none - and now we have plenty... that children are gifts to be protected and cherished, encouraged and stood up for in a society that says it's all about you and your comfort.